love? like? friend?
it's been a long time i have write a post...
i graduate from BVSS le and all the sh*t i gone through.
well, it did change me a lot and affect my everything...
making me more frail and being more dependent to others.
i really hate myself for that but anyway...
i went to singapore poly!!!
while my sec friend all went nyp T.T
BUT
still have pri friend with mii
AND
its EXAM periods!!!!
AHHHHHH
hope i pass all with a good grades!!!!(pray)
recently i'm having serious headache....
it get worse every time
and that chest pain
it getting longer...
all of my memory are getting shorter....
i don't even remember what i was thinking a few moment ago...
the fear just get more and more
hair are dropping at a rapidly rate...
shhhh....
don't tell anyone or ask anything related to it
keep it to urself
don't worry anyone else....
just sleep more and everything will be fine...
rite???
anyway...
i think only ar...
i'm still liking him
but i unconsciously rejected him before...
which i recently then realize > <
he treat me as friend now
while here i'm thinking a lot of...
things related to him...
he have gf before
i did not know
until a friend told me when we are studying for exam
i though i could forget him then....
but he stay in my mind from then on
his every bold moves..
make my heart flutter
does he know?
i stay clam
and told him that i would rather have a friend than a bf
cos i'm scare
i will hurt both of us if we are tgh
however
the real fact is that i'm afraid of getting hurt
and losing him in the process of it.
when he walk in front of me,
does he know that i cnnt hear what he was saying?
even without us being tgh
it feel like we are drifting farther away from each other....
i say before
i hate sticky people
but i'm becoming one of them...
i'm really scare of that...
i want him well
but if he is with me
i don't think i will treat him well...
我曾经以为我不会喜欢上任何人
直到你一直出现在我的视线
让我锁住的心封开
但你不知道
在等你发现时
它已经伤痕累累了
开始放弃了
慢慢失去喜欢任何人的本能。
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